Saying it

I'm noticing a lot more sex in music videos. It's nice and all, but what about the violence, the blood, the gore. I want more violent ones. And some of those music videos with sex and sexual content within them don't make any sense as to the lyrics of the song. Well, in a weird and twisted sense it does, but it doesn't.   More violence! More please, now. Thank you.

I have one, maybe a sexual scene where violence happens because some one came in and killed them because in actuality that man was married to the woman who was cheating on him with another man, or woman. Or, maybe after the violence then comes the sex. I don't know. just more violence. And I want some sad songs, the type that make me cry or want to cry. I want to see a really sad music video, more of those too. Maybe add all three factors.

Nothing to report......

Well now

Public places include many different settings. Settings in which many different conversations should not take place, even though common sense would play a factor in it by stopping some from speaking as such. Unfortunately, some people just don't understand that people hear certain things, and people tend to repeat these little conversations and such.

Yes, some people would claim that a conversation, being heard all the way clear across the store (small store mind you) that it was a private conversation. Such as a woman who was telling her four year old that cigarettes are good right at the sales counter, then when you say "what?" she would say "this is a private conversation". This would not be a private conversation in my opinion, specially in a public place, saying it loud enough for people around to hear and for the cameras as well.

I especially love it when a teen asks their parent to buy them alcohol then when I deny it, they start to argue with me because apparently, I'm not legally allowed to deny them alcohol because they are the ones buying it.

Off tomorrow, going to do basically nothing, wake up at 4am, going to, okay, well since it's been a while, here's a picture:

 

I call it Crap, just crap. Amazing.

2 years and 2 months

I have been working at my current job for 2 years and four months. I've had vacation days of nearly 8 days all together and a personal day, which they made into my day off so it didn't really count. I have never called in sick, though I have tried once and they said no and I even get called in when people call out sick, or I work extra hours on days I already work even if they don't call out sick and expect me to just stay there extra and do whatever they ask. I like my job at times and other time I hate it. I get yelled at by people constantly. I got accused of stealing money by some guy I just met today, he says I did this to him on many occasions and yelled at me for two minutes. I think that certain people, think us women all look the same.

So, to explain as to the reason why I haven't finished that project is simple. I working. I no longer go to school but I work. I thought, when they said my hours would be cut, they would be cut. Not split up amongst 7 days a week. soon I shall be full time at 5 days a week, but even then I may end up working more days a week and more than I am suppose to. That is why I gave myself 5 months, since the end of July, to complete it. I am hoping that I can make that deadline not that I will be up at 3am and will get home around 3pm very soon. So hopefully I will have a few hours after 3pm to work on the project which, if my hours did get cut, would have taken only a month to complete because of how crappy the drawing and the animation is. Thank you and good night.

05/09/13

Yet another post about stuff. Well, still a few months left and already I've completed several scenes, like 2 or 3, for that thing I was or will put up online. Ever since that animation was posted, I found how easy it was to post random crap on youtube so might as well show it off. nothing else to report.

Complain

I'm tired, my feet hurt, I'm hungry. I have no clue what else to do right now. Purchased my first 36-pack ever, not for me though, for some one else.

I have nothing much to add except, thank god there's rain. Haven't had it rain like that in years, which is why it was so bad. Rained five minutes, turned the road into a river, deep river, left about a foot of mud. Awesome. And it's still raining, even better.

Oh, got some more done on that crappy thing I was creating and will maybe get done by December, if not, at least I can put up what I have and say "Yay done". and act like it's done when it's really not.

Anyways, only complaining because I feel like if everyone else can, I can too. I think I got a good complaint. Those darn people who create ups got rid of those large cups. You know, like those 54ounce and 64ounce cups for soda. What the hell man! I want my extra ounces of soda, why punish me for others fault in drinking too much and stuff? Oh, and I want my doughnut back. You know, that kind with that coconut on it, well it was more like a bread pastry, a flat bread with cream and coconut shavings on top. Which technically it was a health food, but they got rid of it in the store out here. Those bastards. And I want all these people, well around 60% of these people, all those who moved out here in the past four years since they made the highway a four lane allowing people to come here. AND, I want those large thing of nachos back, they made it smaller and kept the price the same, so basically I pay four dollars for a small amount of chips. I don't even drink soda, I drink the iced tea, but still. And I only get the nachos for the cheese sauce and jalapeños, I Love my cheese. But that bread pastry, I have not gone back to that store since they stopped making it. Those bastards!

We should riot and get our 64ounce cups back. I mean there are riots for some of the stupidest things now a days, why not about cups. Bring back out 64s!!!

Caca Doodle Do on me VI (He named it)

We have paired together to bring you an exclusive into the mindset of myself and another. Mine is set into explosions and such, while his is, well, you'll know. Anyways, since I was too lazy to make it into a motion picture, yet, I left it as just an animation until the time is right to post it up on youtube. Which I will, and it will be amazing. Anyways, here it is, the moment you have all been waiting for, until the time comes for something else.  Oh yeah, and his link to his video is http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3-fmitxc2gc&nomobile=1

He's almost a genius. Okay, he is a genius, he did it all in mspaint and windows movie maker. I need all these fancy equipment and such for mine to work, like pain and animation shop, and windows movie maker if I can ever figure out how the hell to use it.

That Does it

I am still working on my project for you all, which is basically no one, to see. As well as coming up with ideas and such for other things which will leave anyone who sees them very disappointed. Yes, very. I hope you all are very disappointed in it.

Now, I am currently looking into certain equipment because a few months ago I said to myself "I swear if one more grown adult comes in here and acts like a four year old I'm getting spy gear" well guess what, I am getting equipment once the prices come down or something happens which escalates matters. I am tired of these people coming in and acting like children. They're grown adults. Why do grown adults act like children? I'm tired of it. I know people already do it, which is why I'm going to. If people don't want cameras everywhere watching their every move, then they should blame those people who mess it up for the good ones. Those bastards.

yay

I have every element needed except talent. And the right software in order to create the movie thing. My software sucks.

Okay

So, I finished a small portion of what I've been creating. Yes, it sucks, and yes it's not an actual show or commercial or anything, and yes anyone could do it. But I figure I could show off this small portion to what I have been creating. I found it's actually easy to animate butterflies, but not people. Cars are somewhat easier too. It sucks. That's it. Several more months left but I am willing to show off what I've got. I think you'll, or hopefully you will, understand a small portion or what this will get to.

Several Days

So it's been nearly two weeks since I started to try and finish this little thing I began to create in college. I am nowhere near done with even the first few seconds of it. It needed to all be redone. Animation is much harder than I thought it would be or even remember it being. But I did go from working three hours on one frame to only 20 minutes after I figured out all the little tricks and such needed in order to speed up the process. I think It might actually take the full five months or so to complete since I only have the basics for five seconds, and I want to try and make it to around 20-30 seconds otherwise it would look like hell, and it wouldn't make any sense.

Work has been calling me in much more lately, so I get maybe a few hours a day on average to work on this project. As a matter of fact, I still write, but not as much I have been. Trying to draw and such is much more fun right now. I forgot how much I like to draw and paint and just create images. Takes me away from what's really bothering me. Totally awesome.

Ah Yes

I went down to get some supplies to do my own oil change for once in a few years. Still can't do it, had to return the plastic ramps because they bowed under the weight of my car. The guy said they should hold up, but I'm alright with that auto part store. At least they don't argue with me about the size of my motor.

Anyways, the project. I forgot how fun it was to use, or rather, try to use the functions I want off my software. It's been several years, but I can give a little peak as to what I have created. Which, by the way, sucks because I created it in a haste to try and remember how to do these things.

Lol, Butterfly. Awesome.

Project

Tried using my other computer for online stuff, doesn't work. Apparently everything is blocked on it, including my e-mail. Keeps telling me that the site is not secure, then it asks me a few times if I am sure I wish to continue. Annoying.

Anyways, working on a new project. I have been creating something on my computer which sucks, but I will be placing it up on here in, well let's say within a year. I am no good at making deadlines because I know I will never complete them. Especially those in which I gain or lose nothing from. I woke up only to find and star it, and now that I have a part of it done, I shall continue on with the work and hopefully force one of my friends to help me. I have, three seconds done. Actually, those three seconds are from what I did over a year ago, and I figure, why not finish it.

I did those three seconds for a college project. It was originally done then, but now, I might as well create a story to it. Seems fun. Until then, or earlier.

Sometimes within the year. I have five months. I will never complete it. Damn. I can still try. Good Night.

Coins

I've been going through all my coins and such and playing with them, only because I wanted to know how much money I have just in case anything happens. Anyways, I found a nickel from 1932. I am excited. I bet it is worth nothing.

I've been going through all my stuff in my room and I have not been able to find what I'm looking for. I'm going to look for a new job or something. I just, I don't mind being trained for assistant and such, even they're exited to train me but I don't like all the new stuff I am going to need to do.

White Wine

White Wine or rather the pink one, lol, is awesome. My favorite wine ever. Found something that I could drink on occasion that I actually like. Also, turns out, it's okay to have a creepy obsession with a cop who I know more about than anyone else that I have met at work, even my coworkers.

Is it weird that I have noticed that most cops out here are blond and white. I'd say about 90% of them are.

I don't know what's going on in life. How can one ask if he wants coffee and he doesn't show up to work when I am ready to ask. I am so unhappy. Yet happy and content. What is there to do?

Anyways. I want to find someone that can care for me. Anyways. I want to find my CD and my MP3, and I want to fix my dresser, one of the drawers broke, and I want to play my bass. I want a man who loves me for me. Is that too much to ask?

Anyways. His name, oh my god, one I could say over and over. Amazingly brilliant.

A little drunk, going to go out and walk around in the dark of night looking for snakes and stuff. Will be adding things to this later on maybe tomorrow, or this morning or something, I don't know. Bye. And hi And stuff.

Update

Still can't find my CD, but I did find the laptop I put the music onto for my MP3 player. I get to listen to my favorite songs. Well, every song I like is my favorite. Depends on the day and what I want to listen to. Now, to find that CD that I hope I didn't leave in my car. in this heat, that would suck. Actually I don't think I ever mentioned losing a CD in any of my posts or anything. Just trying to engage in this whole online thing. Oh, now I need to find my MP3. Yeah, I need to get my things organized, go through all my boxes that are full.

I'm quite certain it is in one of those plastic containers that contains all my paperwork. I  hope so, I loved that CD, and that was the fourth MP3 I've had to buy. I need to learn not to break my stuff.

Book

Well, now that I have reorganized my writings. I moved it all from different notebooks and random papers to one large book that I sewn together myself. Now I just need to get the short stories and such off my smaller laptop and then put them into that book. I've only filled up 95 pages of 500 which is good. Means I have more pages to fill. That and reading those short stories I wrote over the course of time has been helpful. That is because I end up writing something new within that book. I just need to learn to title the writings or something.

I have nothing interested to write here.

Something new

I remember many, many different things.

I was afraid of the police for many years, not because of anything my parents did, or anything I saw or heard on television. In my case, when I was four, almost five, I had a babysitter who's husband was a cop. I would be handcuffed to the closet quite frequently by both, and after a while when they learned my hands were too small for the handcuffs (my hands would just slip right out) they began locking me within the closet.

That's just one of the many babysitters I had when my father called himself a "stay-at-home-dad".

Anyways, I'm not afraid of police anymore. Took several years and a trip to the police station where I got a teddy bear before I saw them differently. I was seven at the time. Now, I see them as people since they're always coming into the place I work. Seriously, most of them are just as annoying as those other freaks, except they actually don't trash the store.

Bassically

Bassically-- I've been a little depressed about everything that has been going on right now. No more school, no boyfriend because I'm afraid of men, my work pay sucks and they cut my hours, I can't find any other job who would pay me enough to be able to get a house. I don't drink or do drugs and everyone I know does this so why hang out with people when I don't want to partake in anything they want to do. Most of my friends are married with children already and I feel like I need something more. We talk, we just don't do anything because we have nothing in common. I have two best friends, one who is not allowed to talk to me because his wife doesn't let him, and one best friend who's too high on meth to listen to my problems or help me out when I need her. Only one friend I have I can actually talk and relate to. I'm at the point of my life where I want something more out of it and I can't get it.

Then today, I learned one of my best workers is thinking about leaving the company and in return I get three of the shittiest employees now. I think I need a break from all this shit that's happening.

Luckily, my friend only sleeps a few hours a day and we're talking about all the shit that's happening in life. Life will get better, it always does.

Wonder

Ever wrote something, as as you reread it, it becomes apparent that the entire text is too much, yet you add more to it because it needs more, not less. I have rewrote this several times and each time, I just add more to it.

I'm currently working on just the introduction, I think. I didn't add in the normal things like breaks in it. I forgot to write where the chapters are actually. I have an idea, just did not do it. Yeah. Anyways, up late, nothing really to do, so. Whatever.

Well now

Either I got a virus doing what most every does online or I clicked something I wasn't suppose to. Anyways, thinking this laptop was broken for sure, I went in search of one of my old ones, which turns out one of them wasn't truly broken. I should have looked into it more carefully. My plug for it, for some reason, is broken and since I have no battery for it, that was why it wouldn't turn on. Should have been the first thing to consider before buying a new one, yes. Anyways, it just turns out that I'm an idiot and not exactly cursed when it comes to technology. Things are looking up for me. I don't know what to do with the other one. Maybe I'll go back to that one and place this one away for later, for stuff, I don't know. I'm excited right now.

Maybe my cell phones and my calculators were not really broken either. Amazing.